I had an epiphany this afternoon. I got an email from my mom saying how sorry she was about the miscarriage. I don’t know how I jumped to this train of thought but I realized I get very nervous and stressed when I’m pregnant. I’m worried that one of two scenarios may happen: 1.I have to terminate the pregnancy after it’s progressed quite far….like my second pregnancy. or 2. That I give birth to a child with severe problems, or even not so severe problems. I am just now realizing I’m petrified of these two things happening. Obviously this can’t be good. Maybe my fear is causing the pregnancies to end? Somehow that seems like a safer outcome…..but not a much better one. So, how do I get over this?
On another note, I checked out the character traits of Taurus people. It’s not bad at all. Quite great actually. I also looked at famous people born under this sign and many of them are in creative fields. I think I’d like a Taurus kid. At least I got that fear under control.
