I want another child. I know I’ve been blessed with P. If she is the only one we ever have I will feel very blessed. However, I want another baby in our lives because I think P would benefit so much. I can see her longing for a baby in her world. She is so tender with little beings whether it be puppies or babies.
I long to be pregnant again. I look forward to having a second one with the wisdom acquired from the first. I look forward to the challenges a second child will bring. The positives out weigh the negatives by a long shot.
Maybe it’s not so much P who would benefit but I would. After losing the last two pregnancies I feel incomplete. I visualize and feel our house will have another child in it and I know I’ll feel complete if I’m able to deliver a healthy child.
Life has been rough over the last two years but I think we’ve surpassed the mending mode and are into healing. I feel our family is ready for another blessing and we are all ready to give this being everything we have as we have been doing with P. I know we are ready.
The lyrics that keep going on and on in my head are:
“I think I can make it now the pain is gone
All of the bad feelings have disappeared
Here is the rainbow I have been waiting for
Its going to be a bright, bright sun shiny day……”
Please grant me my rainbow.